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Friday, September 19, 2003

*IS PROUD TO BE CALLED BIZARRE AND POINTLESS* ... yay!!! I'm bizarre! I'm pointless! Cuz if I had a point I'd be...a PIRATE! HAPPY INTERNATIONAL TALK LIKE A PIRATE DAY! YARRRR!!!!!

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 10:29 a.m.

Thursday, June 12, 2003


What three smells evoke a strong emotional response in you, and why? (e.g. food, perfume...)

1. Blueberry Pancakes. Grandpa always made blueberry pancakes whenever I spent the night at my Grandparents house when I was little.
2. Smelly Tree car freshners. They make me sick. That was really emotional, I know.
3. Baby Powder Soft deoderant. It makes me think of my armpits. And when we were playing "two truths and a lie" at youth group and one of Jamie's truths was "I wear Baby Powder Soft deoderant." That was a bonding moment. Or something.

What three specific sounds do you really love, and why? If you can't explain why, don't worry.

1. "Blllehhhhp" - because that's a noise I feel the need to incessantly make. Which is also rediculously hard to control. So you must imagine what a dork I feel like when I do it in front of customers.
2. Sound when Mario swims in "Super Mario Brothers Three" because I can't think of anything else and I can hear Jason playing it in the living room. It is a cool noise too, you have to admit...
3. The sound of boiling water. Because it means dinner is that much closer to being done.

What three specific sounds do you absolutely hate, and why? If you can't explain why, don't worry.

1. Mosquitos. Brings back the horror of the time I was eaten alive by them and dubbed the human bugbite.
2. Finger nails on jeans. I HATE THAT SOUND WITH A FIERY PASSION!!! My mom does it all the time. Not on purpose...until I remind her how much I hate it, of course.
3. The noises the system that monitors the pumps makes at work. ITS horrible. First of all, people ALWAYS accuse me of playing a video game. Secondly if someone takes too long to pay you have a choice of listening to a blaring alarm (if you leave it)or crickets (if you put it on hold). If I ever meet the person who picked the sounds for that system....I'd have a word or two with them.

Name three of your guilty pleasures and why you enjoy them. ("Just because" is acceptable.)

1. This is sad. I have so many. Narrowing it down is hard. Reality TV is definately in the top three tho. I'm such a reality tv whore. However, I've toned that down - I don't have time to watch them all, the quality is going downhill fast, and a person can only watch "survivor" so many times with interest.
2. Kid Rock. Dear God, I said it. I like Kid Rock. I even think he's kinda hot in a weird pimpass kinda way. I'm sorry. You can beat me with noodles now.
3. Teenager dumbass movies. I know I should be more into artsy movies and stuff (which I like too, don't get me wrong). I just enjoy a good brainless flick more than I should, ya know?

Name three of your guilty displeasures (i.e. things you feel bad for not liking) and why you dislike them. ("Just because" is acceptable.)

1. The female voice. I don't like female singers - isn't that horrible? For god sakes I am one (female, not a singer). There are like three females in the world I can listen to sing without cringing (Faith Hill, Gwen Stefani, and Shirley Manson - oh yeah and angry girl stage Alanis Morissette). I know, I'm a ameoba-shaped freak.
2. Techno. I can't stand the stuff. I feel like I should since that's the type of music a lot of my friends listen to. I just can't tho. It's so repetitive and it drills into my head like a damn woodpecker. *sobsobsob*
3. New Metallica. GOOD LORD it's HORRIBLE. I heart Metallica, but seriously...WHAT happened?

You're famous! A toy company wants to make an action figure of you. What three special, unique SUPER-XTREEM ACTION features would it have?

1. Special Porno features (I.E. - The double dandy noodle spanking arm of pleasure, Super spiffy lubricating hair follicles, The We Bang You Bang We all Bang for Ice Cream O-Meter). Ok, not really. I was trying to be all impressive and failed.
2. The ability to scare away enemies by going "Blllehhhhp" and then zerbiting them (how does one spell zerbit anyways?)
3. Speaking of spelling.....the ability to spell almost anything anywhere wrong - maybe throw some grammar deficiency in there too.

You wake up one morning to find a time machine crashed in your backyard! Not looking a gift horse in the mouth, you go back in time for a bit of fun. Which three eras/locations do you visit?

This one's hard. I'm not a big history person. I'm sure I could come up with better answers but they aren't coming to me tonight.

1. The beginning of Earth/Space - come on, we all want to see just how the earth was created, right? I personally want to witness the "let there be light" speech.
2. I think it would intersting to go back to all the major historical artsy moments. Seeing the "masters" at work would be awesome. Ooooohhh and going to see plays and stuff. That'd be happy. (there was a sophisticated answer....sorta...*coughcough*).
3. 1994/New York, Woodstock. There's a concert I'd liked to have been at (as long as nothing went horribly wrong, I don't know, I just like the line up). Korn, Alanis Morissette, Bush, Aerosmith, Metallica, Rage Against The Machine, the Offspring ... There's some bands I'd actually want to go back in time to see (note: male singers, not techno, not NEW Metallica - everything checks out).

While back in time, you decide to change three things in your own past or in world history. (The grandfather paradox is not in effect.) Which three things do you change, and why?

1. Stop Barney from being created. If I can't do that at least create him as a gigantic miming (mime...miming...that looks strange) bumblebee or something less annoying.
2. I would get something really valuable from today's world and bring it back to one of my ancestors thus making them really rich and starting some serious money in my family line. Ah, what it would be to be born into richness. -____- Actually prolly not that great, but we're dreaming right now, and in dreams money is good. Always.
3. In my own past? (dear lord, a serious answer). I'd do college completely differently. Not sure if I'd even go. If I did I might not chose Whitworth a second time around. I definately would never try to major in computer science. Maybe education or english instead.

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 10:44 p.m.

Thursday, June 12, 2003

Today I say "I like cheese" what do you say?

In other news : I'm a hum-dinger. Thank you. Puff has left the building.

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 07:40 p.m.

Monday, June 2, 2003

I'm all fluttery nervous. *flutter flutter flutter.* Damn butterflies. *whips out butterfly net* MWHAHHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHHHHHH *breath* HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHAAAAAAAAA.

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 03:38 p.m.

Sunday, June 1, 2003

Entirely Rachel's fault. I heart Weebl and Bob

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 12:19 a.m.

Sunday, June 1, 2003

Gah Gah siss boom bah. That was the elaborate "dromroll" to my first entry in FOREVER (and a day). Goodness I've been ljing a lot more than I've been pitaing. Sad thing is by reading what's in this pita I sound very whiney and annoying. I'm not, promise. *cough cough*

Not much really to share. I'VE GOT AN ANGRY INCH. Hmm...I have the sudden need to watch Hedwig. Unfortunately I don't own it (YET).

What else exciting? I now own "Hedgehog Bakes a Cake" courtesy of Rachel and 50 cents. I heart Hedgehogs. This is a particuarly great book too let me TELL YOU. OoooOooOo baby. Makes me wanna be a hedgehog again. Then I remember I never was a hedgehog thus negating the "again." HAhahahahahahaa. God, I'm exciting.

Now I think I'll go to bed. I just ate a fugical. Much like mugical but with an f. WOOOoOoOOooOo. Boy I'm a special one tonight. Tonight, you ask? TONIGHT.

OH, eat a worm.

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 12:01 a.m.

Sunday, April 27, 2003

Haven't been doing a very good job of writing in this thing. Have been using lj for EVERYTHING instead of just for funnies. Bad Lissa, Bad.

My gums feel funny. Had a dream that was in a team of like ... 5 that had a magic power to fly, but didn't realize it until the same moment in time that the bad guys came to try to stop us from saving the world (or something like that). Anyways, We had to pack really fast and I grabbed the mouthwash and people were like - we're trying to save the world and you're worried about mouthwash? I was like yes! My gums hurt! and that was the extent of the real world mingling with my dream. Because the rest involved stuff like building a spaceship out of cards.

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 12:27 p.m.

Friday, March 28, 2003

Good God. I've been having a bit of an issue with nerves lately. Especially when I first wake up. It's like there's something churning in my tummy and causing all of me to shake. It's quite pleasant. REALLY.

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 05:33 p.m.

Thursday, March 27, 2003

I'm cold. My toe hurts. I'm feeling sad. Jason isn't home. The evil psychic spider even disappeared. Lonely is me. Poo Poo Poo. Whine Whine Whine. Nuts on me. I'm going to bed.

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 10:37 p.m.

Tuesday, March 25, 2003

I am sad. I go thru these little spurts where I think I can change. I have all these ideas of things I can do to make things better. To get myself out of those hole. Then reality comes rushing back, I get depressed again, and I'm where I am now. Hating myself, in tears, wanting to die.

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 08:28 p.m.

Tuesday, March 25, 2003

My head is spinning. I'm so tempted just to go back to bed. Avoidance is usually my best tactic. -_-

Jason just informed me that he has to withdraw from two of his classes. Therefore, he is going to have to take summer courses. I'm not pleased about this. I wanted to move next month. I'm still worried about moving tho. Finding a job. Finding a new life. If I don't find some improvements to live for fast there isn't going to be a me. I've put all my hopes into starting over when I move. If I fail I think I'll probably just give up.

I know it's materialistic but I like money. I like things. I hate being poor. I'm a miserable horrid poor person. Most importantly I need a job I can be proud of. I have absolutely NO pride now. I hate telling people where I work. I feel ashamed that I have a college degree and don't have anything to show for it except being broke. Whenever someone I knew from college stops by to get gas I have a complete break down. It's eating me away that much. If this is the life I'm going to have to live quite frankly I don't see the point in existing.

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 03:54 p.m.

Tuesday, March 25, 2003

What Magical Girl Are You?

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 12:19 a.m.

Monday, March 24, 2003

*whines* I want new clothes. I think it's a combination of watching "What not to wear," listening to Jamie talk about leg/arm warmers, and the simple fact that I hate my wardrobe with the exception of like three items. Ugh. I wish I could make a fashion statement without going broke. Then, I think, who friggin cares? What am I talking about? I can't look good in ANYTHING so why the hell would I even spend the money trying? Same reason I don't wear makeup....unfortunately you can't hide gargantuanously ugly fatness under anything. New plan is to lose 75% of my weight and then make a stab at cuteness.

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 10:17 p.m.

Monday, March 24, 2003

Dear GOD! *eyes water* *fans self* The friggin "Flash Strips" are rather potent. *feels flames of icey mountain friggazoid running thru nose* That's just wrong. And yet....I like. *grinning after panting for the last few minutes* Now it tastes good. MmmMmmm. *pant pant* MmmMmmm. *pant pant*

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 02:05 a.m.

Saturday, March 22, 2003

I got a livejournal . Don't know why don't know what I'm going to use it for but at the time it seemed extremely important that I get one, so I did. Actually, I was thinking about making this one more about my life and that one more about silly things, if that makes sense.

I have been having issues because I pick up words that I'm reading too easily. I've been reading a special series of books about this 14 year old British girl. It's hysterical but it has got me using words like nuddypants, lippy, nippy noodles, and nunga-nungas. It's truely frightening. Also good news on the book front is that I received a pre-going-away present from my friends and it was 8 books from the "Series of Unfortunate Events" which I have already expressed my undying love for. O.o I should do some art based on that. I could totally have fun with a Count Olaf theme!!!

On the not so good news my mom has some sort of thing they found in her breast during her mamogram. She had to have a biopsy and they messed it up so now they have to do it again. It sounds annoying and painful if you ask me. Plus, of couse, I worry about her.

Fu came over earlier this week and we had a lot of fun. We went mini-golfing and played games and got lots of tickets which we used to buy special dolphin spinny things. Anyways, while she was over we did these sandart thingamajiggies. You know - when you have different colors of layered sand in a clear container and it makes pretties. Well, yesterday I hear a *shakeshakeshake* and Jason goes "Wow, you really have to shake this thing hard to get all the sand to mix together." I'm like "Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! That's my beautiful sand art egg." but by the time I got to it it was only a mass of blue sand. Forutnately I wasn't THAT attached to it and found it hysterical. It was a lot funnier last night tho....

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 02:49 p.m.

Sunday, March 16, 2003

This damn evil scary psychic bathroom spider is really starting to piss me off. Not only does it come out only when I'm in the room but the one time I get guts to try to kill it what does it do? Hides. Fuck it. Fuck fuck damn stupid spider. RRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH.

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 10:43 p.m.

Sunday, March 16, 2003

You would all be proud to know that I put up my first deviantartwork. So, now I will give you the linkey. It is here. Here is it. . I amused myself working on this "piece" - still don't think you can really call it art but it's all good.

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 06:09 p.m.

Saturday, March 15, 2003

*sticks fork in eye* Nobody has been online lately. Not that I have a whole helluvalotta people on my lists but that's not the point. I checked icq and aim and nothing. *pouts* And I'm too afraid of phones to actually pick that up and call anyone. LOL. *is a dork* ... *is a lonely dork*

... I'm getting tired. I slept a LOT when I got home yesterday. I was really friggin wiggin out. Usually I don't get quite that emotional and confused when I'm tired. I pretty much collapsed when I got home. After throwing a hysterical crying fit, of course. Yesterday wasn't one of my prouder moments.

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 11:09 p.m.

Saturday, March 15, 2003

Jiggles around. I've been sitting at the puter for too long. I have many goals to meet this weekend and I've been working my ass off to do so. *wiggles some more* I even made some art. It's not very good and I'm not going to put it up because I don't have permission to use the stuff that I used within it, but the point is that it exists and therefore I feel better about life, the universe, and everything. Hopefully I'll be able to create completely original art soon to make the getting of a deviantart account not pointless. LOL. That's tomorrows goal.

I'm sucking on a get better bear cuz my throat hurties.

There's an evil spider in the bathroom that only comes out when I'm there because it knows I won't kill it. Rrrrgh.

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 11:05 p.m.

Saturday, March 15, 2003

You should all be proud. I finally got a deviantart account. I thought it would be good for me since I can't seem to get off my ass artistically. There's nothing there yet. But hopefully since I have today off there will be! (:

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 01:03 p.m.

Saturday, March 15, 2003

I was working on adding cliquehappy members when I ran accross this survey at this page. I'm depressed right now so it's not particualrly fascinating. Maybe I'll refill it out later when I can make the answers happier....

1. who did you last get angry with? Jason. We just had an argument about money. I'm stupid and was pissed at myself for forgetting to mail a payment. Actually I didn't timing is just off. Monday seemed a lot farther away than it really is and I was stupid. I also planned money verrrrry wrong and screwed us so now somehow I have to get thru the week without buying anything. HA! The funny thing is I was mad at Jason because he told me to stop beating myself up about it. Imagine that.
2. what is your weapon of choice? My imaginary Hedgehog. He's a black belt.
3. would you hit a member of the opposite sex? Um....YES!!!! I do, all the time.
4. how about of the same sex? If it came down to it, yes. However, I don't make it a point to hit other people (Jason doesn't count).
5. who was the last person who got really angry at you? Jason, I think. Altho I think I made my Grandma mad too but not "really" angry. Now I love her immensely but she's very intimidating so you don't want her even a little angry at you.
6. What is your pet peeve? I can only have one? I don't like the noise it makes when fingernail scratch jeans. I don't like customers. I don't like people who WrItE lIkE ThIs. Another is with the stupid ugly ewwww trends in web pages that I have to experience when I add new members to cliquehappy. I could probably go on forever.....
7. do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily? I'm not entirely sure....*ponders*....I think I let them go easily. I tend to forgive really quickly. I don't like to be angry at people.

1. what is one thing you're supposed to do daily that you haven't done in a long time? EXERCIZE! This includes my knee exerizes that are supposed to keep me from having that issues again. I'm a bad, bad girl.
2. what is the latest you've ever woken up? That's a really hard question because I go to bed at very strange times sometimes. Plus, I've slept the entire day before. So it's kinda moot.
3. name a person you've been meaning to contact, but haven't: Amanda. We've been friends since kindergarten. I haven't called her back because I'm ashamed of myself. I have nothing to be proud of and she has a friggin career, two kids, is engaged, and living in a house. I'm a big nothing.
4. what is the last lame excuse you made? Hm. I can't remember. *ponders* Damn. I make so many lame excuses and now when it really counts I can't remember any of them!
5. have you ever watched an infomercial all the way through (one of the long ones...)? No, not all the way. I watched about 45 minutes of a bowflex one once because I thought I was waiting for a show to get on but I was on the wrong channel and I got all involved and lost time.
6. when was the last time you got a good workout? Quarter to never. Actually, about probably....a couple years ago. My energy doesn't seem to be up good enough to really get a good workout anymore. oh hey! There's a lame excuse....use that for number four.
7. how many times did you hit the snooze button on your alarm clock today? Shockingly, I didn't. Since I had just fallen asleep an hour before I had to get up I wasn't really asleep enough to not be wide awake. Plus, I can't risk that when I have to get up that early because I'm bound to sleep in then.

1. what is your overpriced yuppie beverage of choice? Triple Shot Nonfat Iced Mocha with a shot of something nice. I'm also partial to Mud Slides....are those really yuppie beverages tho?
2. meat eaters: white meat or dark meat? White. Dark is icky.
3. what is the greatest amount of alcohol you've had in one sitting/outing/event? A margarita, a daquari, some of Jamie's weird fucked up everything in a cup you can imagine drink, and some Mikes ... I think. I was a little tipsy but that's about it. I like it that way.
4. have you ever used a professional diet company? Yes. Weight Watchers. It worked very well. I lost like 50 lbs. Then I went back to school, stopped going to the program, and gained it all back. And more.
5. do you have an issue with your weight? Yes. My entire life revolves around the fact that I'm fat. I hate it and yet can't seem to fix it. Which is why I'm always depressed and miserable. It's an evil evil circle of hatred.
6. do you prefer sweets, salty foods, or spicy foods? sweet. Aha! That explains the fat thing.
7. have you ever looked at a small housepet or child and thought, "LUNCH"? No. However, if Jason says "eat me" I try to. He always give me the "It's not literal" speech.

1. how many people have you seen naked (not counting movies/family)? Wow. I think....three. One was a neighbor that didn't know how to close their blinds.
2. how many people have seen YOU naked (not counting physicians/family)? two. I think.
3. have you ever caught yourself staring at the chest/crotch of a member of your gender of choice during a normal conversation? Hee. Yes. Bad.
4. have you "done it"? It? Yes. Me and it are like this ->>> ||
5. what is your favorite body part on a person of your gender of choice? CENSORED DELETED
6. have you ever been propositioned by a prostitute? Sadly, no.
7. have you ever been tested for an STD or pregnancy? No.

1. how many credit cards do you own? *cringes* 5, not counting debit.
2. what's your guilty pleasure store? Exotic Boutique. Kidding, never even *cough* been there *cough*. Guilty pleasure store.....probably any media store - Hastings, Best Buy, Amazon, etc. Also I tend to buy things I shouldn't when I go to Target.
3. if you had $1 million, what would you do with it? The first things I would do would be buy a new wardrobe, buy a lot of books, games, and dvds, buy a new car, buy a place to live, buy FURNATURE...and then go on vacation. I used to say I'd donate it to charity. That was before experiencing being utterly broke. Right now there's so much on my "I want" list I'd probably be able to spend it all on myself.
4. would you rather be rich, or famous? RICH. I have no desire for fame. Someone else can have my fifteen seconds.
5. would you accept a boring job if it meant you would make megabucks? Yes. I no longer hope for my dream job. I just need something to get by. I've pretty much resigned myself to the fact that I'm never going to be doing anything I like. I'll probably be a gas station attendant for the rest of my life. That's boring enough and if I'm going to be bored I'd rather be rich while being bored.
6. have you ever stolen anything? No. I'm a very big goodie goodie.
7. how many MP3s are on your hard drive? A friggin lot.

1. what one thing have you done that you're most proud of? I've never been proud of ANYTHING I've done. I'm a walking disappointment.
2. what one thing have you done that your parents are most proud of? Probably graduating from college with honors. I haven't done a lot to be proud of.
3. what thing would you like to accomplish in your life? I seem to have lost all my goals. I no longer believe I have a future.
4. do you get annoyed by coming in second place? No. I'm not competitive.
5. have you ever entered a contest of skill, knowing you were of much higher skill than all the other competitors? No.
6. have you ever cheated on something to get a higher score? Nope.
7. what did you do today that you're proud of? Once again, no pride here. This is a pride free zone. *beep beep beep*

1. what item (or person) of your friends would you most want to have for your own? I'm mostly jealous of my friend's pets. I really REALLY want a pet!!!
2. who would you want to go on "Trading Spaces" with? Hmmmmm. Not sure. Rather irrelevant since I live in an apartment.
3. if you could be anyone else in the world, who would you be? Another toughie. I'm not sure I can name someone specific. I just would want to be skinny, pretty, rich, artistically talented, smart, friendly, outgoing, and not famous.
4. have you ever been cheated on? Nope.
5. have you ever wished you had a physical feature different from your own? I wish I was anything different than I am.
6. what inborn traits do you see in others that you wish you had for yourself? self-confidence, outgoingness, intelligence, beauty.
7. do you wish you'd come up with this survey? Not particularly.

1. what religion do you follow? Presbyterian. If you can call a girl who hasn't been to church in about three years still to be following that religion. I do, however, intend to start going back to church once I move back home. I'm still in a weird place religiously right now.
2. what religion were you raised as? Presbyterian. I was very religious when I was younger.
3. do you believe that forgiveness is a religious property, or a human property? A little of both, I guess.
4. do you believe in magic? I don't disbelive in magic. And I like the idea. However, I'm not sure how it meshes with my religious beliefs.
5. what was the last promise you broke? I don't think I did. Maybe I have broken promises but usually I don't make them if I don't intend to keep them.....
6. have you ever said the words to a prayer and not meant it? Yes. That's why I stopped praying every night. It was more a motion and less with the meaning. Now, on the rare occasion that I do pray, it does mean something...unforutnately it's usually when I need something, which isn't right either.
7. do you believe that anyone could be perfect? We're human. We're fallable. Perfection is not for us.

1. did you get everything you wanted over the last holiday season? No, but I also didn't ask for anything. I felt too guilty because I was too broke to do much for people.
2. regarding your future, what is the best thing you could hope for? To get out of the hole I'm in right now.
3. do you let yourself get your hopes up for something even if you know that there is a large chance of failure? Um....yeah, of course. Everyone does.
4. do you gamble? Ocassionally.
5. have you ever had something called off on account of bad weather, but then gone ahead and done it anyway? No.

1. what causes do you support? Animal rights/protection/etc, art (women in art, importance to community, etc), Gay rights, children.......however, all in thought none monetarily or even in actions anymore...*is a bad person*
2. what causes have you given money or time to? I haven't in a very loooong time. I used to do a lot of that kind of stuff thru church and school tho.
3. have you ever worked in a soup kitchen or done another kind of outreach for the homeless? Yes.
4. would you ever consider joining the peace corps, amnesty international, or another type? Nope.
6. have you ever helped out a friend with basic needs, like food and rent? Yes, if I remember right. When I lived with Jason and Sarah we leaned on each other a lot.
7. what's the greatest extent you've gone to help a friend in need? Hm. I can't think of any particualarly outstanding things I've done for anyone. I suck!

1. what are you most afraid of? Death, Spiders, Mayonnaise.
2. what did you do today that was really brave? Today? Not much. I watched "Reba." I think that was pretty brave.
3. who is your favorite superhero, and why? Wow. I think I'll have to ponder this one a little farther before answering.
4. would you put your life in danger to rescue someone? Yes. I don't think I could live with myself otherwise. However, I'm slow to act and tend to freak out in desperate situations so who knows what I would do if confronted with this issue in real life.
5. if you were to face the wizard, would you want more courage, more brains, or more heart? brains, I guess. Then courage. Then heart.
6. have you ever gotten stage fright? Definately. I hate being in front of people.
7. do you consider yourself to be a leader or a follower? FOLLOWER. Without a doubt.

1. have you ever been summoned for jury duty? Yes. Fortunately I didn't have to go.
2. if they reinstituted the draft (for both genders), would you go, or would find some way out of it? Find a way out.
3. do you support capital punishment (the death penalty)? I'm undecided. On one hand, I hate the idea of killing people. On the other risking having them alive may be dangerous and what's the point if they are sitting in a cell anyways? I dunno.
4. which should be guaranteed legal, prostitution or marijuana: I really don't object to either being legal.
5. do you believe that dubya is rightfully president of the usa? Yes. Don't tell but I actually like him. For no particularly good political reason....I just do.
6. what was your favorite media circus trial? I so don't have one. They all SUCK balls.
7. have you ever written a letter to a politician? No. I don't care that much about politics.

1. what do you have the hardest time moderating yourself on? Food. Television. Money. Baths. Chapstick. Hating myself. Sleep.
2. do you collect anything? Hedgehogs are the overarching one. I also have a collection of nail polish, bouncy balls, cocker spaniels, and sailor moon stuff.
3. are you addicted to anything? Food. Television. Spending money. Baths. Chapstick. Hating myself. Sleep.
4. have you ever put anything on layaway or ordered an installment plan? Can't say I have.
5. what's your preferred method of paying for things? Check. Mostly because it usually takes about three days to clear. Those three days can be crucial.
6. tell us one thing you wish you hadn't let yourself do: Go to college. I don't think it was worth the time or the money or the complete loss of self.
7. do you feel that you obsess over things? Defaintely. I'm a professional obsessor. Too bad they don't pay for that.

1. who is the wisest person you know? No offense, but I'm not sure I would categorize anyone I know as "wise." Maybe cuz when I think of wize I have this weird old man image I can't get out of my head.
2. have you ever participated in a vigil? I'm not entirely sure.
3. do you take advice when it's given? Sometimes. Anything's better than relying on myself.
4. what area are you wisest in? I'm wisdomless.
5. do you drive defensively? Yes. I dislike driving and I fear other people.
6. have you ever had unprotected sex outside of marriage? No.
7. what did you learn today? That if your friend says they are a Floridian that means that they are from Florida, not that they are gay. I learn important things from "Street Smarts"

*finally, what is your favorite deadly sin? Lust, duh.

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 03:07 a.m.

Friday, March 14, 2003

GRargh. I am offically a complete dumbass. Just sharing.

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 10:22 p.m.

Friday, March 14, 2003

*croaks* Why am I croaking, you ask. It just so happens that when I have to wake up this early in the fucking morning I do whatever the hell comes naturally. Today it's acting like a frog. (of course, don't be silly!) I didn't sleep well last night, if at all. I went to bed in plenty of time but tossed and turned and didn't sleep a wink until 3:43. At least, that's the last time I remember seeing the clock before finally falling asleep. Thus giving me about an hour of the precious zzzzzz's. This does not make me a very human human. Hence, the croaking.

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 05:24 a.m.

Friday, March 14, 2003

I can't sleep. It fucking sucks because I now have to work the morning shift tomorrow. Rrrrrrgh.

Also, today I tried gelato. It made me happy - yumminess galore. I also accompanied Rachel in watching Firefly get fingerprinted. I managed to set off the metal detector alarms in the courthouse. Let's all be shocked. I always set off damn detectors. Maybe I was a weapon in my past life. In other news I discovered I have swirly fingerprints. Who knew? I also gotted a sketchbook in hopes that I'll actually jumpstart the artist in me.

The keyboard is slanted cuz Firefly had to use it. I kinda like it this way. However, I now can see it better and it's really disgusting. I need to clean my keyboard out. Not to mention this whole friggin house. I haven't had a day off in so long that it's gone down the crapper and today wasn't really a day off cuz I was....I dunno...having a day off but not the kind where you clean.

Jason disagrees with the pluralization of penis being penii. We had a Loooooooong discussion on the matter which ended in me threatening to have my penis, Pearl, beat him up. He then told me Pearl didn't exist because I was a woman. Just becuase Pearl is imaginary doesn't mean it doesn't exist. So I bit him. Now we are even. True love comes in many forms.

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 12:32 a.m.

Monday, March 10, 2003

The toilet flushes again!!!!!HOORRRRAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! I never quite knew how miserable it would be without a toilet that flushes. Now I know that my bladder is evil. It felt the need to constantly pee even tho I couldn't. Even when I had to pee as soon as I got off I had to pee more. And now that it's fixed. No having to pee. What's that about, eh?

I overmixed this dip. It's all bubbley and weird. Ack! *is a horrid cook*. I almost said I was a horrid book. Which could be true but isn't because I might make a good book. I don't know. I've never been a book before.

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 01:27 p.m.

Monday, March 10, 2003

Well, poop on me and call me Sally.

Today was Sunday. (Tell me something I didn't know). I really didn't want to work today, but that's pretty normal.

My boss lost a bet and as a result had his hair bleeched blonde and spiked when I came to work today. That was a tad amusing, but I thought ... it gave him "personality."

The only other thing really worthy of note was the guy getting gas when I left that was blasting opera music. And we're not talking little blasting we're talking disturbing blasting. LOL. I was actually pretty impressed. It's one thing to blast rap and such but another all together to have the balls to share opera with the world.

I also rented the Veggie Tales Movie (Jonah) and "Life or Something like it." Veggietales was pretty amusing - but it was hard to focus on. I liked all the fish slapping tho. Hee! *slaps you with fish*

I'd also like to share that our toilet doesn't flush. Hopefully they can repair it tomorrow. It's really great too cuz I keep having to number two and what the hell am I gonna do? Hold it?, so the repair guy is going to have a unflushable toilet full of shit to deal with. Just thought I'd share that mental image with you. Live long and prosper. Or prespire. Whichever comes first.

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 12:23 a.m.

Sunday, March 9, 2003

Ugh. Who invented mornings? They suck. There's not much in this world more depressing than dragging yourself out of your bed and realizing you have the whole day in front of you.

It's snowing too. SNOWING. Why? Why!?!

I'm suddenly obsessed with "Wig in a Box" - once again, off the Hedwig Movie Soundtrack. I can't stop listening to that cd. Or maybe I'm just too lazy to change cds! *_*

I'm hungry. I have to get my ass moving. I have to shovel snow of my fucking car still. *grumble grumble*

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 10:39 a.m.

Sunday, March 9, 2003

Sitting at my puter I attempt to do art. Jason's playing some game that keeps saying things in really annoying voices "Yes Master" It drones. Over, and over, and over again. So, frustrated I pick up some headphones and pop in the Hedwig Movie Soundtrack. Still nothing? Nope. I'm an endless void. Nothing creative. Not even a speck. Well, maybe a speck. Literally. I made a dot on the photoshop canvas. It was beautiful. Really. See? This is like the artist block of doom. It's lasted like four years now and counting! To make myself feel better I'm doing something else. This or That Tuesday seems harmless enough.

1. Soup or salad? Salad. I'm a suprizingly huge fan of salad IF it has enough crap on it. And dressing and croutons are important.
2. Hot or cold sandwiches? Mmmm. I love sandwhiches, but my fave are cold subs.
3. White or whole wheat bread (or rye, etc)? White. I absolutely despise wheat bread. That's like all I got for the first several million years of my life so now I can't stand it. I'm very particular about my bread. I hate the cheap two for a dollar bread!!! Wonderbread? Now we're talking.
4. Pack a lunch for work/school, or buy it? Well, technically packing is better. However, I tend to buy it. Which is BADDDDDDDDDDDDD! Mostly because I work at a grocery store. It's expensive and tempting!!!
5. If you eat chain, or mom & pop type place? I haven't been to many mom and pop places, to tell you the truth... and I've found I prefer the chains when I have.
6. Tuna or chicken salad? Chicken. I'm not a big fan of tuna. I'll eat it,
7. Cheese: Swiss or cheddar (or American, etc)? Chedder. Very particular about my cheese too. I prefer Medium Cheddar. But even then you never know what you are going to get. Some batches are sucky and rubbery and others are yummolicious and bursting with flavor. I have a really good one this week! WOOTYAY!
8. Mustard or mayo? Anyone who knows me would know that it is MUSTARD all the FRIGGIN FRAGGIN WAY!!!!!!!!
9. Sandwiches: wrap/pita pocket, or regular bread/roll? I don't like pita pockets but anything else will work!
10. Sweet stuff: cookie/cake or fresh fruit? I love both. I love baked goods like cookies, but cake isn't really that great. On the other hand I only like certain kinda fruits. Normal ones suck but berries and melons are yummmmmmmmmy!!! So.....that's a toss, I guess.

What have we learned from this week's this or that? That Puff is a picky eater!!

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 12:20 a.m.

Saturday, March 8, 2003

I'm an assoholick. Just thought I'd share. It's a pretty bad problem. STINKNUGGETS!

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 12:53 a.m.

Friday, March 7, 2003

*rolls out of bed to get phone* Oh! Guess what? Apparently I am going to work today. *dies* Someone called in sick and it's not like I can say "no" cuz I desperately need the hours, ya know? So, here I am getting ready for work. Oh yippie tye yie yay.

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 11:28 a.m.

Friday, March 7, 2003

I've been a grumpnugget all night tonight but Jason just made me feel better. He decided to play the "let's make Lissa smile game." Which inevitably boosts my spirits - even if it is cheesy. Just thought I'd share. No particular reason...

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 02:58 a.m.

Thursday, March 6, 2003

I came to a revelation today. I haven't really done anything artsy in longer than I can even remember. I think maybe that would help relieve some of my depression. I heard once that an artist without their art loses sanity. Simply because that's how an artist expresses themselves, that's how they share what they know. It's our form of communication and without it some of you is lost. Maybe that's what I need to do to find myself again....It's not the solution by any means, but a step maybe. And lots of steps can eventually get you somewhere!

For some reason I'm the artist equivalent of a Sunday Protestant. If you can even call me an artist, which I personally wouldn't call myself ... and yet I do? Throughout college I did art for classes. I loved it, but it wasn't something I pursued outside of class. Everything I did on my own turned into a mess so I just gave up. I think it's becuase I am anal retentive about grades and what others think of me so I had a huge driving force to do well on the art projects for school. Now I feel like I've lost that force. Yet I feel in my element when I work on web pages for cliquehappy and this blog .. but that's about all I've done all year. Maybe I need to start working on other things. I think I'll get a deviantart account and make myself produce some art. I've been so impressed simply by cruising around the site lately that I feel inspired to try some stuff out.....

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 05:15 p.m.

Thursday, March 6, 2003

Gah. I'm trying to stay awake until work. This is something I rather don't want to do lately. We're talking sleeping for an average of 15 hours at a time lately. I've really been in a pitfall. Bummed beyond belief. *I alliterated* I just can't seem to face anything lately. I want to crawl into a deep dark cave (equipt with the necessities like a television, a bath, and lots of chocolate) and just live there for the rest of my life.

I'm starting to worry about going home. I feel so insecure. Most of my friends I know in the area have amounted to something. And here I am. A big nothing. Literally big. That's the other thing. I don't want to face my family. I'm gigantic.

The other night for some reason I was in a completely sappy mood. I was all cuddling Jason and telling him how happy I was to have him in my life yadda yadda yadda. He turns to me and says is "You need to start working out." What the hell is that? I know this is Jason we're talking about here. He doesn't always have the best control over his mouth but that really hurt me. I know I need to start working out. I'm not stupid. Well, I am, but that's another topic. I am not stupid enough to think I'm not fat. Let's put it that way. I don't know why I haven't started working out. I guess I've just been so friggin depressed that I haven't had the energy to do anything. Which is shit. I'm hiding behind everything and nothing and .... what am I talking about, I'm so confused. There's no excuse for me. I'm a rambling fat idiot. Maybe I'll go do some exercize right now. Maybe that will help me feel better....

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 02:31 p.m.

Wednesday, March 5, 2003

I feel qoozy. That was supposed to be woozy but I thought qoozy sounded appropriate as well. I've been even more lazy than usual lately. I just can't seem to move. I like to smother myself in things that don't remind me of reality (sleeping,television,etc). Reality hasn't been treating me really well lately and if I accidentally go back to it I always become depressed and suicidal. However, sleeping life away isn't going really well either. My apartment is a disaster. Something smells horrid (can't figure out what) and if I don't get off my ass and clean soon the whole place is going to rot. And living in a rotting apartment is not a good reality either....

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 02:41 p.m.

Wednesday, March 5, 2003

GAH! Spider in the bathroom and Jason's asleep! ahhhhhhhhhhh!!!

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 03:02 a.m.

Tuesday, March 4, 2003

Cotonelle now has wider absorbent ripples.

It was this groundbreaking announcement splashed across the package of toilet paper I was forced to buy that triggered a whole novels worth of toilet paper ponderings.

- Why the hell do I spend more on paper to wipe my ass than a single meal?
- Who in the world decided toilet paper needed to come in such a variety of styles. Have you ever sat in the toilet paper aisle and dumbfoundeded looked at the rows and rows of rolls of tp and wondered "why?" Why double roll versus single? Scented versus unscented? Four pack versus Twenty-four pack? Cute little kids on the front versus store brand? Ripples versus flower patterns? For the love. As long as it's not the crap that they make you use in the employee restrooms I'm good. It's for your ass, people. Seriously.
- And yet, all these brands exist. So they must be making a profit. Somehow their cute little kids, claims of being softer than other brands, and what not are rallying the troops to scream "give me more." This just goes to prove how important advertising is. It's all about selling something.

Maybe I'm missing something but I would still like to ask "Why, in God's green earth, do I care what size the damn ripples are?

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 06:45 p.m.

Thursday, May 1, 2003

I am a foxy baby who loves to mount nipples.

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 02:10 p.m.

Wednesday, April 30, 2003

I archived. I archived. Everyone be proud of me. I am archiving goddess. Yes, oh yes, I am.

Feeling useless and poopy. Poop is poopy and therefore doop is doopy and if that's the case then we're all doomed. Obviously. Logic is the key. It's all integralatation. Yes, Must be. Otherwise there'd be gigantic squids filling toilets with soup and that is just wrong. WRONG I TELL YOU. It's an outrage.

- screamed the gamblin' man @ 10:05 p.m.